Here is a message to me by a high school batchmate. May I say that she could not have said it any better. Thanks, Annabelle! And yeah, here's to less suicides! Haha.
I've read your blog on QUARTERLIFE CRISIS and even if I caught the clarity of your message (I hope I really did), I still read your blog the 3rd time as of today. I was trying to deeply digest the thoughts you put in altogether holding on to it as an opportunity for me to reflect on my own, to understand which of your examples I might fit in or describe me. Till I came upon a logical conclusion: My life isn't perfect. I'm not perfect. You're not perfect. Your neighbor, your parents, teachers and everyone else isn’t perfect. Life isn't suppose to be perfect. Imperfection creates perfection. When we stumble and fall, we all as human beings have the God given instinctive gift to stand up almost right after.
Quarterlife crisis, mid-life crisis.... it's both crisis. No matter where we are in our life, no matter how far we've gone, achieved or underachieve... No matter how successful or perhaps feeling inefficient, I think every man is bound to find himself every once in a while in his life to ponder on things he knows he can achieve or do better but didnt. I believe the "being or feeling" lost is the key to finding our better selves. It is a chance of pursuing your dream. When you know you're lost, then you know where you actually want to go. You may not know exactly where, but for sure if you're lost you have that feeling you're not suppose to be there. So obviously you know you’ve got to go find the right place. But that shouldn’t be considered crisis. The finding or searching is a bright big sign of HOPE.
Sure I ask myself “what have I done with my life”………….. and I always know my answer is “I can be better”. Because I know that just like you and everyone else in this world, God blessed me with capabilities I might have not fully explored yet. And I have watched a thousand of times from “The Secret”, how we can create something out of nothing and how the law of attraction can bring us to what our mind wants to achieve. And so why am I not the President? Surely, if I wanted to contribute in this country I might as well be one. Hahah! How was I in High School and College? I’ve gone through adventures and may have fallen hard from the sky. Hurt myself and saw a stupid girl for being stupid when she’s really smart. Haha! But I surely have enjoyed all its worth and no regrets! Then howcome I find myself also asking the “what ifs”? Hmm…. Is it because I’m only human and bound to always ask out of curiosity? Face it, the human race is bound to be hungry for more. Never contented. Or only contented for a short period of time and then wants more. It’s in our system. It’s universal. Our mind, our body, the universe all work the same. Always needing something to feed its existence.
If I’m running my own company then why do I still ask money from my dad? Well, why does everyone I know still ask money from their parents? Don’t tell me you have not borrowed or received any single cent or peso from your dad or mom this year or last year. There is something truly different from how our parents were raised by our grandparents and how our parents may have raised our generation. Am I blaming our parents? Of course not! I’m just saying! Besides, all the bad attitude came from the wrong teachings and example of a woman named Rebekkah, she is the mother of all b#tch@s from the BC, married to Abram, … taught her favorite son how to be self centered, lie, manipulate and steal. (This is another topic and irrelevant but an interesting story from the greatest book of history, the Bible.)
Back to the topic: When you said there are those who are just lucky and know what to do in their life. Well, I can say there are probably many out there who knows what they want to do in their life but still not successful and ask themselves why. So are they the lucky ones? I honestly think the lucky ones are the ones who can seriously deeply find true happiness within. These are the people who can find contentment no matter what life brings them. Hey, I’m not perfect and I will be honest to say, I have high expectations of myself and still striving to achieve atleast half of what my parents achieved. But I do take pride in finding the greatest joy and contentment whenever I am my best at being a mother to my two adorable kids who reciprocates the love and values I’ve inculcated in them for them to apply towards their friends, family and hopefully the rest of society as they grow. This gives me a reason to answer my hunger for contentment. I can die today, …. Face God and tell him….I was not perfect like you but I was like you, All Knowing, All loving, All merciful when I brought 2 lives in this world! Raised and still is raising my children well in order for them to contribute to, if not good, to a better society.
So whatever the crisis, midlife or quarterlife… it’s crisis when you see it as crisis and not find the light in it. But it sure does give us a reason to drink, weep and whine. Not the most outstanding thing to do but very typically human. Very normal.
---Annabelle M. Papas
Quarterlife crisis, mid-life crisis.... it's both crisis. No matter where we are in our life, no matter how far we've gone, achieved or underachieve... No matter how successful or perhaps feeling inefficient, I think every man is bound to find himself every once in a while in his life to ponder on things he knows he can achieve or do better but didnt. I believe the "being or feeling" lost is the key to finding our better selves. It is a chance of pursuing your dream. When you know you're lost, then you know where you actually want to go. You may not know exactly where, but for sure if you're lost you have that feeling you're not suppose to be there. So obviously you know you’ve got to go find the right place. But that shouldn’t be considered crisis. The finding or searching is a bright big sign of HOPE.
Sure I ask myself “what have I done with my life”………….. and I always know my answer is “I can be better”. Because I know that just like you and everyone else in this world, God blessed me with capabilities I might have not fully explored yet. And I have watched a thousand of times from “The Secret”, how we can create something out of nothing and how the law of attraction can bring us to what our mind wants to achieve. And so why am I not the President? Surely, if I wanted to contribute in this country I might as well be one. Hahah! How was I in High School and College? I’ve gone through adventures and may have fallen hard from the sky. Hurt myself and saw a stupid girl for being stupid when she’s really smart. Haha! But I surely have enjoyed all its worth and no regrets! Then howcome I find myself also asking the “what ifs”? Hmm…. Is it because I’m only human and bound to always ask out of curiosity? Face it, the human race is bound to be hungry for more. Never contented. Or only contented for a short period of time and then wants more. It’s in our system. It’s universal. Our mind, our body, the universe all work the same. Always needing something to feed its existence.
If I’m running my own company then why do I still ask money from my dad? Well, why does everyone I know still ask money from their parents? Don’t tell me you have not borrowed or received any single cent or peso from your dad or mom this year or last year. There is something truly different from how our parents were raised by our grandparents and how our parents may have raised our generation. Am I blaming our parents? Of course not! I’m just saying! Besides, all the bad attitude came from the wrong teachings and example of a woman named Rebekkah, she is the mother of all b#tch@s from the BC, married to Abram, … taught her favorite son how to be self centered, lie, manipulate and steal. (This is another topic and irrelevant but an interesting story from the greatest book of history, the Bible.)
Back to the topic: When you said there are those who are just lucky and know what to do in their life. Well, I can say there are probably many out there who knows what they want to do in their life but still not successful and ask themselves why. So are they the lucky ones? I honestly think the lucky ones are the ones who can seriously deeply find true happiness within. These are the people who can find contentment no matter what life brings them. Hey, I’m not perfect and I will be honest to say, I have high expectations of myself and still striving to achieve atleast half of what my parents achieved. But I do take pride in finding the greatest joy and contentment whenever I am my best at being a mother to my two adorable kids who reciprocates the love and values I’ve inculcated in them for them to apply towards their friends, family and hopefully the rest of society as they grow. This gives me a reason to answer my hunger for contentment. I can die today, …. Face God and tell him….I was not perfect like you but I was like you, All Knowing, All loving, All merciful when I brought 2 lives in this world! Raised and still is raising my children well in order for them to contribute to, if not good, to a better society.
So whatever the crisis, midlife or quarterlife… it’s crisis when you see it as crisis and not find the light in it. But it sure does give us a reason to drink, weep and whine. Not the most outstanding thing to do but very typically human. Very normal.
---Annabelle M. Papas
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